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A few nights ago I dreamt of something, and it made me realize the importance SNSD has in my life. I dreamt that our 9 girls had had a car accident and one of them (I don’t really know who it was because the name was never mentioned in the dream) died. I remember that in the dream I cried buckets of tears and I screamed at my mom to let my go to Korea immediately, I was totally suffering , and I woke up crying so so much, the dream was too real and that dream made me write this. I’m an 18 year old Portuguese girl. A GG’s fangirl between so many. 2 years and a half ago a 16 year old me watched her mother being beaten up by her stepfather. 2 months after that the 16 year old depressed me was introduced to SNSD, and my little unhappy life gained so much light. I thank them so much. Because yes, my stepfather still does things, and yes sometimes I get so unhappy, but MY role models make my life so much happy, their existence makes me happy. When I don’t want to get up to go to school I think, ‘ no MY role models despite being tired emotionally and physically always get out of bed and do what they have to do’ and I do what my role models do. I get out of bed and smile to each one of my friends and to my family because they deserve to see me smiling. Today is GG’s fifth anniversary. Today is MY role models fifth anniversary as a perfect group. Today I feel so overwhelmed with emotions that I want to cry and laugh at the same time. Today I thank Girl’s Generation for saving me from depression, just like I do everyday . And I hope one day I will see my role models and thank them personally. Thank you Taeyeon for being so mature and yet so full of dorkiness that it just makes me want to squish your cheeks. Thank you Jessica for making me a person who follows her heart. Thank you Sunny for being so brave and for making me brave as well. Thank you Tiffany for teaching me that no matter how sad life is you have to get through it with a radiant smile. Thank you Hyoyeon for teaching me that it doens’t matter if people don’t give you the importance you deserve at the beginning, because in the end you will be recognized and born as someone much more beautiful. Thank you Yuri for making me want to exercise (ahah), and for being my source of laughter with your fails and awesome language skills. Thank you Sooyoung for teaching me to appreciate my family and for making me laugh with your wonderful impersonations. Thank you Yoona for teaching me how to be humble and for making me smile with your smile. Thank you Seohyun for teaching me that having life goals is good and for making me want to be a president in the future (LOLs). Thank you SNSD for existing, for being who you are, and for making my world so much prettier. I love you. I'm proud of you. HAPPY 5^th ANNIVERSARY my girls. My role models. <3