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Some people might know me and remember about me because of an article I wrote to SoShified in which I told a little about my life and how Girls Generation helped me to hear again a year after I had a cochlear implant done.
This is their first post-debut anniversary - of 5 - that I’m celebrating as a Sone and words are not enough to express how much I’m grateful and how much I love these 9 girls. Yes, all the 9 members, because each one of them is primordial and equally important.
Girls Generation weren’t only helping me as hearing therapists, but they were also helping with other matters. Explaining better the other half of the story, when I met SoShi on 2011, I was lost in a very deep depression, since I had found out that the cause of my hearing loss was a autosomal recessive disease, which is rare and neuro degenerative – progressive – I lost myself in a very deep depression. The cereberal ataxia can be caused by over 27 diseases, so the exact one was still to be discovered.
This disease affected not only my hearing, but also my motor coordination, reflexes, and gave me mobility problems – I use crutches to walk long distances – among many other problems. I spent a lot of nights crying alone in my bedroom, although I had my family and friends support and comprehension, I was the only one who knew how much pain I was enduring, how much my body spasms bothered me, how it felt to gradually loose control over my own body and worse, without a blood exam with a “positive” for anything I was being tested for.
This made me really depressed, and this was when I met Girls Generation, the 9 angels who put a smile back on my face and something to distract me. I spent a lot of nights awake, researching, reading, watching videos and listening to their music.
Now, 10 months later, I’m much better emotionally and psychologically, I haven’t had any relapse since December. The doctors still couldn’t find out the exact disease that I have – DNA exams take a long time to get ready – but they are getting closer, they found some alterations on some exams, but honestly? Now I don’t care anymore. I mean, I want to be ok and start a treatment, but when everything starts to fall apart, I run to my 9 angels and soon I’m smiling again.
Every blood exam with a negative result for whatever I was tested for, made me cry a lot, but then, all I had to do was to listen to SNSD and I would soon forget about what I was crying for. The gave me the strength to get over the situation.
When I see the girls helping another people, and even talking so little about themselves, I can see in their eyes that they have their own problems and demons as well as things that haunt them, but they work hard and are always smiling to bring joy to our lives.
I think it was Yuri who once said something like “Thanks for picking 9 ordinary girls and giving them a chance”, well that is, that’s what they really are, 9 ordinary women, like myself and many others, 9 women who worked very hard to get on the top, and they got there being something that many idols are not, they got there being humble.
They are humble at the point of saying that the Sones are the ones who make the hard work, they are also very grateful. In every concert they are always bending 90° to thank their fans, while securities are pushing the fans away, the girls are still giving autographs and taking pictures, and a lot of times you can hear them saying “don’t push them.”
I just want to wish a happy 5^th anniversary to this amazing group, although I can’t say it face to face, the vows are valid. Girls Geneation gave a meaning to my life again and nothing can pay this back but gratitude and love. I hope we will have them for many years more. As I said before, word are not enough to express the importance of SNSD in my life, so all I can say is; THANK YOU GIRLS, FOR EVERYTHING!!!! SNSD and Sones hwaiting!