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I'm surprised no one posted this, lol.

While waiting backstage in my dress, [the PD] said I had to think of a name.
Me: Wu....What should my name be? HeeGyu? HeeJa? Ah..that has no personality
PD: Heechul~ Pick a name yet?
Me: Um...do you have SNSD songs? Can you play them later?
PD: Oh ok..haha thank you for mentioning that, hehe I'll tell them ^^.
Me: GOOD...so my name...Yuri? Heeri?...a bit strange. Yoona, Heena? Heefany? Brighter than gems Tiffa Tiffa Tiffany?...is that how it goes?
Stylist: It's Fany Fany Tiffany....
Me: So hard...Sica? Heesica? Ice princess! Ah very good! Haha gotta dance to Gee
Behind the scenes ends here

I really really hate dressing up as a girl but that day was pretty crazy and fun.
Even my breast pads...



Translations by xxdeadline
Credit: Heechul's CY, Baidu
* I translated this from Chinese so the translations are off a bit but the main idea is there.

First of all thank you all for praying for me yesterday to see if I got chosen or not. Being the girls' first largest Gee Seoul Fan Signing and having the ratio of 300:1, our site (SNSDChina) had 3 people chosen. Zhu Liang, CJS and I were chosen.

Yesterday night at around 2, Korea's New Country (A very famous CD store) posted the chosen 300 S�NEs. Because I was staring at the computer the whole night, when they posted it, I was already so tired so I slept and didn't find out the first minute. It was actually our sites' Xin that found out first, me and CJS were the first two to be chosen, Zhu Liang was number 5, the other 7 Seoul branch weren't chosen.

When Xin's QQ message woke me up, I saw that she wrote "You got it!" and then posted a picture (Xin posted a screencap from the Korean site) but it was a X so I was like "What do you mean?" I looked at the time, wa it was 4 already. I opened up the New Country site and I immediately jumped up. Out of the Seoul branch, 3 of us were chosen, CJS was first then me, then Zhu Liang was fifth, I was so excited (I almost broke my table from kicking so hard). So I immediately called the other two and Zhu Liang was very excited and couldn't stop talking and I couldn't reach Zhu Liang (probably sleeping since phone was off).

Before leaving, I took out my brand new clothes, then got out new shoes, took a shower and shaved and got ready to leave. I brought my password and CD receipt. At around 1pm I arrived at YongSan. Zhu Liang came all the way from Gangwon-do (but because CJS never picked up, missed the signing chance)

Because they changed the place, we arrived at around 3pm. After we exchanged the numbers, the staff told us to sit in order. The waiting was unbearable but we felt great. I saw some Korean fans that didn't get in walking outside. I thought this time it's my turn to see you guys. (Because before all the fan meetings or birthday parties, since my Korean was bad I always let the Korean fans go first, and would always be just looking outside but now finally I got this chance.

Around 3:30, Korean fans started to increase, reporters from TV stations started to come and the CD store closed and put up the girls' banners. At 4:15, Magnae, Ssica, Sooyoung and Yuri suddenly appeared behind the banner, the crowd was crazy. The stores' shoppers also started to crowd around and asked who was here. When they found out it was the girls, they didn't believe it. After asking more and we took out the CDs for them to see, they finally believed it and hurriedly took out their cellphones.

Because Zhu Liang and I brought a lot of gifts from SNSDChina, we didn't have the hands to take pictures of that day. We also sat on the ground so it was hard to take pictures and also if the girls saw us taking pictures, it probably would be rude of us.
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The fan signing began at 4:20. Zhu Liang and I had numbers 62 and 63. We thought it might take a while but it only took 10 minutes. (Am in awe of the girls' signing speed).

At first I thought this was nothing to be nervous about but when it was our turn, we were so nervous we almost couldn't breathe. Zhu Liang's body was trembling and even lose the ticket to get in but thankfully I found it immediately or else I would be the only one of us going in. But my condition wasn't better then Zhu Liang's. My eyes started to see stars, and I couldn't feel my feet, it didn't listen to me and just continued to walk forward. Held a breath...and I really needed to go to the bathroom....
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Finally when we got in the room, from left to right was magnae, ssica, Sooyoung, and Yuri. When Zhu Liang went up to magnae, he forgot how to speak. After realizing he was there he said he came from China and magnae looked really excited and replied with a loud "oh!" and then they started to talk in Chinese. What they talked about I forgot since we were both so nervous. Next was me, when magnae saw me she did another "ah!" knowing I was Chinese. Maybe because I was wondering why Taeyeon wasn't there, I first gave some of the forum gifts to magnae and also gave her what Xin brought in Shanghai, a Keroro stick, magnae covered her mouth and couldn't stop laughing and kept on saying thank you. Also our forum's gifts, after magnae took them, were put by her side and put the keroro stick on her chair.

Next magnae and I shook hands, my god this feel like how I felt when I shook Taeyeon's hand. Then magnae signed for me and asked me if I wanted my Chinese name, Korean name or English name. But this time the evil manager said "English, hurry." Sigh. At the end, magnae signed mine in English then I asked magnae if she can do a exclusive signature for SNSDChina but looking at the manager's face...still couldn't give one. Sigh I'm thinking at the time if there were no managers wouldn't it be better? Magnae and I conversed about 2 sentences in Chinese: Hello, Thank you and my "you're welcome".

Zhu Liang's next signing I didn't pay attention since I was currently feeling high blood pressure and having the feeling of fainting soon...

Next was ssica, I didn't have a impression on her so I first introduced that I was a Chinese fan then I gave the largest present from SNSDChina to her. This was when she started to get nervous because when she gets Korean fan presents, she handles it really skillfully and now suddenly having to Chinese fans...she was more nervous than me.

Probably because ssica's Chinese wasn't good so she was nervous but after saying hello in Korean to her and saying where the presents came from, she responded with a thank you and thanked the Chinese fans and she will use the gifts well. Then she signed for me.
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Next was Sooyoung. Haha, she was the most interesting one. No matter what the manager said, she still wanted to sign mine in Chinese at the end the line for signing at the place stopped for 30 seconds.�I felt kind of embarrassed. I was really touched. I got my most wanted thing today, a Chinese signature.

Last was Yuri, seeing her so close was so exciting. Really, Yuri isn't just ordinarily pretty, my eyes were like popping out. Yuri's Chinese wasn't bad either. She even used Chinese to say: "Have you eaten" and 'It's really cold in Korea, don't catch a cold", "Thank you for supporting us", "I really like Chinese culture", which made me have no idea what language I should reply her. At the end Yuri signed "Thank you" in Chinese on Zhu Liang and mine. She said 'Thank you Chinese S�NEs!'
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Then Zhu Liang and I left reluctantly. Really, the girls were much prettier than on TV. And also today magnae and Yuri, when they saw us, were acting all crazy. They do have Chinese fans in their hearts.�

Also the gifts from SNSD were really good. I went to SM after and was going to give Taeyeon some snacks but saw Ssica and Sooyoung eating the food we brought them. Seeing this made me really happy!

Next is an account of me being a fan representative and having an interview with a TV channel and introduced Korea to SNSDChina.

Credit: éâ?¦Â·Ã§Å¡â??æÆ?³æ¯å®¹@SNSDChina
Translations: xxdeadline

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If you want, I can translate the TV interview account too. He also posted up the autographs, I am so jealous of him. And I love how he describes everything, his fan accounts are always a good read.

A quick summary of what the fan from SNSDChina wrote (The same one as last time's)

he lined up since 2 in the morning
a lot of the fans were disappointed in mucore's perf because of the cheers
it wasnt able to be shown on tv
and they were like 'we have to be better this time'
there were about 400 sones
even though it's not a lot compared to mucore, it's larger than otehr fans
a lot of the fan voices were bad because of the shouting from mucore
were sore and tired
they lined up for inki
and the line was all the way a street away from inki
and then at around 5am, they started counting
the fans themselves and did it again later
and then around 10 the workers came and split the girls and guys up
they made the girls in one huge group, guys in another
since the girls were doing a special recording with himnae
the girl fans were in the standing area
the guys fans were surprised at how many girl fans there weer lolne
the guys were like "if its like this, people think we're cheering for a boy band"

the snsd girls were a bit surprised too seeing so many girls sones
and thought not a lot of fans came lol
there were already 200 people in there

the girls were happy they had so many girl fans
and the girls started to talk to them
which made the boy fans mad lol
so they kept on waving their balloons
and some guys were yelling so loud that they got sent out

taeyeon had a lot of moments when recording himnae. there was this red paper on the floor and she slipped on it and just when people were asking if she was okay, she slipped again (not sure actually if it was on accident or she was playing around). then another time, the rubber band that was used to tie up her pony tail somehow flung off and the fans were like "oh~". another time, taeyeon's mic thing from the back fell out.

this guy is the first to enter the fan meeting
for the fan meeting he couldnt really hear since it was so loud
but he heard the girls saying there will be new surprises
and then something about a mini concert. he wasn't sure though since his korean is still limited and the crowd was loud.

Credit: SNSDChina, xxdeadline for summary/translation

A fan from SNSDChina wrote his fan account. I translated this verrrrry quickly so please bare with the grammar, spelling mistakes. ^^

I just came back from the girls' MBC comeback, everyone probably already saw it. A lot of people seem to be worried since the chants on TV weren't that loud but I would like to tell you all that, there's no need to worry about that. Today's live support is probably Korea's most strongest on TV for girl groups. Let's put it this way, I along with some Seoul members went to MBC building at 7, our numbers started from 511, remember this is only at 7. At around 1pm, the amounts of Sone have increased up to more than 1000 people, at the end a SM worker said that the last number would be around 1200 but because of the size of the audience seats, the amount of Sones allowed in were around 1000.

MBC's live broadcasting room could no longer squeeze anymore people, all the seats were sat by Sones, even on the ground, it was crowded, even at the back, all of it was full. At the standing area, other than some SHINee fans, the rest were all Sone. All of SM's workers were unable to keep their mouths closed because of smiling the whole time. Because I only participated in the 'Gee' recording, the 'Way To Go' performance, because it would be live broadcasting, other fans had to come in too so there would only be 300 Sones that could stay. The first 300 Sones, because they lined up since last night, it was understandable for them to stay. The other Sones went home. On my way home, I watched the live from my phone. The scenario is completely different than on TV. The MBC director，after recording 'Gee' made the background music louder, which made the fan chants seem weak. When I was on the subway (she was probably watching it on the subway), I could barely hear the loud support from the Sones but I have already told you guys to not worry. That performance was all Sone. Also, some people saw some people at the standing area looking a bit slow-witted, that's because the Sones inside were very excited. Once balloons started to be waved, the camera in the back was completely blocked so the director didn't let anyone in the Standing area wave any balloons.

Now let's talk about all the happenings of today. Today, I and some SNSDChina members and a member from Taiwan arrived at 7 at the MBC building. After getting out of the car, my heart skipped a beat, darn, there's a huge chance we won't be able to go in. The whole first floor of the waiting room was filled with Sone. I found the person in charge of counting the fans and she said my number was 511. The weather today in Korea has been the coldest so far ever since winter started. Even if we were inside, me and the other members were shivering. At 9, the workers of MBC began to call out numbers. When looking at the numbers and seeing the number 800 being said, this news was spread to all the Sones really quickly, everyone was so happy, we never thought that there would be that many people here today. We are afterall fans of a girl group, this number's appearance, might not surpass the record but it has to probably break the record in Music Core. The security guards said they never saw so many boys, it was unbelievable. We however didn't know that that number was only the number of people at 9am. As time passed by, the amount of Sones increased and later by myself estimating, there were probably up to 1000 people.

However when they were counting us, it was a painful process because the amount of people let everyone be surprised, SM only sent two of their workers so it was up to us to count the number of people. After your name was called, you would sit down. Because of that, the space became smaller and it made us 500 people outside. That time it was -10 degrees celcius. We stayed in that temperature for 2 hours. Around 10 or so, SM had more workers come and help count. Most interesting was that when they arrived and saw all of the Sones, they couldn't believe their eyes since they usually see only 100-200 Sones. So then a SM worker quickly went back to SM to get more balloons since the balloons we had with us were not enough.

At around 12pm, the first 300 Sones were able to go in. Because of the large amount of people, the staff inspected us more carefully, didn't let anyone use anyone else's number. When you went in, everyone had to have their CD and their number to go in. When the first 300 went in, us 500 and over finally could be inside. About an hour later we started to go in.

Not that long later, the girls appeared. Then the entire room was filled with sound. Having gone to many live performance, this is the first time seeing such a strong male supporting group (Like seeing the amount of boys coming). The girls seemed really happy since they probably didn't know they would see so many Sones. The security guards were also smiling seeing so many guys there, it was very interesting to them. Everyone knows, at that time there were still a lot of Sones waiting outside since the Korean fan next to me got a call from outside asking if there was anymore room since there were hundreds more outside but there was no more room. As long as there was some room, there were all Sone.

Talk about when the girls performed. When they began to record, the fans at the standing area waved their balloons but it made the camera from behind to not have any good shots so that was why everyone saw only one person standing there. The girls today was really good even though they sang it 4 times but all 4 times, they sang from the beginning to the end, no cuts. The Sones there, because it was their first time doing the fan chant, had a hard time doing the chant at first. It was loud but a bit messy. But when the girls sang "Gee Gee Gee" and "No No No", the chants were in unison, even the director complimented us saying the effect was good. But maybe because we were loud, it covered up the girls' voice so at the end, MBC made the background music louder which made the live broadcast have weak chants.

During recording, there were some behind the scenes. One time during a break, Sooyoung and Yuri went to some Sones. They never thought that so many people would come. They asked us if we were cold and we said we were. Yuri said she thanked all of us. The second time of recording, Yoona's fans came up with an idea, everyone yelled out 'KIM SAEBYUK". This made the girls not knowing whether to laugh or not. Taeyeon said something but I forgot what it was but it was somethin like "I guess you'll be Kim Saebyuk from now on!" The fourth recording, our Taeyeon corrected some of the pronunciations to some members. Taeyeon especially sang some difficult parts out and then the recording was over. When they were leaving the stage, they looked like they didn't want to leave. It'll be hard to see another stage like this. Then SHINee came up and greeting their fans and Sone and they even sang a part of 'Gee'. Because of the girls' comeback, a lot of SHINee fans weren't able to go in the live recording so some Sones that were inside took some SHINee balloons and waved them when SHINee came on, some yelled out 'Choi Minho!'


Here I would like to say there might be some people that think what happened was impossible but I would like to tell you, today's circumstances are true. Some ss501 fans were amazed at the amount of Sones comeing. They said, "Ah, so many fans of SNSD." They had absolutely no idea. Not too long ago when they participated in anti-ing the girls did they expect now that Sone has expanded this much.

Today's events will be finished here. The most hardest times they and we have overcome. You can think, about 1000 people coming for one group at the auditorium is what kind of idea. There are only some boy groups that are able to achieve this, girl groups are more harder. I don't know about what girl group has achieved this before but in the present the only girl group that is able to achieve this is SNSD.

Credits: SNSDChina, xxdeadline for translations

I translated the diary of Taeyeon that she wrote at ChinChin. I really want to hug her. All the girls are just tired and working endlessly. I want their comeback to be later maybe even the middle of next year because seeing Taeyeon like this makes me so sad and I am really worried about her. If being leader she feels like this, I wonder how the other members feel these past months...

The translations aren't 100% accurate but it's close.
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After all the schedules are done for the day, I went back to the dorms.
The girls were in their rooms doing their own things:
some were watching TV in the living room, some were listening to music while cleaning their rooms, some were calling, etc etc.
Even though I also wanted to do that, I was just too tired so I threw myself onto the bed
and thinking "Tomorrow I will have to also work hard" and I closed my eyes.

And that lasted for an hour, but I still couldn't sleep.
Feeling uneasy, I still closed my eyes and tried to sleep.
Two hours...three hours..ticktock, time was going by
I finally kicked off my blanket and went to the living room.
Went to the bathroom and then flipped through channels.
Went to the kitchen and opened the refrigerator and looked around..
Ah..it's been like this for a couple of days. I couldn't sleep well for a couple of days...
Isn't this insomnia?
Even though my body is so tired like it's dead, even though thinking that closing my eyes would let me sleep, but it just doesn't work. Washing myself that is good for sleep or drinking warm tea was still no use.

Is there anyone that said to me..
"Don't think too much..just forget everything..."

Every night I always worry and I don't even know what I'm worried about.
Having so much worry and ideas, feeling depressed to the extent I can't sleep.
**"Strangely, even though I spent the whole night worrying about what will happen tomorrow, I expected that day to just go by really quick...like systematically. However, it doesn't seem like that either."**


Emptying out my heart, whatever happens later, I'll think about it then.
Yeah, like this Taeyeon ah!
Sleep, please sleep a bit
No...it's please let me sleep a bit~

** - Thanks to Cathode for the translations
Credit: SNSDChina