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This is 2 weeks late but I felt like sharing. I'll try to make this short since a lot of people have shared their stories which is similar to mine

Vacation was coming to an end and I wasnt sure if I should stay in the east coast or head back west. I have responsibilites there, work and school. It's a tough decision to make. Then a week before my supposedly flight back to west, I changed the itinerary. Soshi won over school and work. Obviously!

01.31.2012
I wanted to head down to NYC on Monday but then thought, that's another day I have to pay for accomodation. Coming back from an overseas vacay made me broke. So I tried to cutdown on expenses. Being as cheap as possible haha. In the end I left NE Tuesday morning. I was scheduled to arrive in NY around 10AM. It's a good thing cos I was hoping of getting a glimpse of the girls before they head inside Late Night's studio.

As I arrived in front of the building, it was empty. I thought, no one's here at this hour yet. Wow. Curious about this revelation, I walked around the buiding. I saw about 15-20 sones waiting on the other side of the streets. It was pretty obvious with the amount of people wearing pink, holding fansigns and posters. I talked with a few of them to kill time. Bonding is important in this fandom yo. Hours passed by and it was around the time the girls were scheduled to arrive.

Their oh-so-obvious bus parked right in front of us. One by one the members approached us sones. It was crazy. Onlookers were wondering what was all the hype we're into. Although was near the end of the barricades, I was happy to be up front. At least I can try to get their attention. I took out my peas in hopes of getting taeyeon to touch it. Alright, that's impossible. At least notice it As the girls were getting closer, I spazzed like crazy. oh my gosh if I could record my own face when soshi approached. Anyway, Jessica was the first to come by, followed by Sooyoung, Yoona, Hyoyeon, Sunny, and Taeyeon. TIffany and Seohyun must've stayed in the back
My first thought after seeing them, they're so pretty. Goddesses for sure.
Jessica: my second time seeing her up close. Pretty as before. So cheerful. Not even a bit of ice princess showing.
Yoona: she waved at me >.<
Sunny: so bubbly and all smiles. Does that girl not get tired especially after a long flight and possible jetlag?
Taeyeon: oh my gosh. OH MY FREAKIN GOSH. i froze in front of her. A friend standing next to me succeeded in getting her autograph while I was busy filming them. I saw her hesitate, stared at the manager standing next to her, but signed I didn't expect her to be that short tho.
I have a fancam I uploaded and apparently it was embedded on soshified so I wont be sharing it here. Too embarrassing lol. My hoarsely voice was too obvious. I blame the cold I got and lack of sleep.

I then waited until the show was over and waited like the rest at the same spot. The later it got, the more people came. A lot more than few hours earlier. At the time I didnt really care about taking pictures or filming. I just wanted to congratulate them on a great performance even though I didn't watch it live. I walked to the other side of the street adjacent to the bus. I stood a few feet from their bus actually. The girls walked out with a lot more energy than before. Taeyeon was her dorky self, smiled a lot, and even made a heart sign. This was different than the Taeyeon I recorded hours earlier. I knew their performance was a success by that.
I just have to say, the paparazzi was too much. They were blinding the girls with the amazingly bright flashes. I think Tiffany was almost blinded by it. After the bus left, I went to my hotel.


02.01.2012
I couldn't sleep the night before. It still didn't register to me that I saw Taeyeon up close. >.< It felt like a dream. I seriously wanted to hug her that time. Or at least talk. But my mind went blank. I couldn't move. I just stood there. Recorded her. Ugh that face. I should stop before I make a fool out of myself here lol.

I'll make this day short since I didn't do much, only stood in line, waited for the girls to come, and went on national tv with my peas ^^
Oh, I do have a fancam for this. This was after the recording. Only Taeyeon tho I think you can tell my bias by now lol
Tiffany ignored me yet again. hmph. She went ninja on me walked behind other girls straight to the bus. Not cool.

I forgot how to embed, so click the link?
http://youtu.be/WhNuLpbgIyQ

02.02.2012
I was about to sleep when a friend told me there were at least 100 people in line at Best Buy. I looked at the time. 12.30AM O_O I got there 15 minutes later and luckily the line didn't add much. Phew. I didn't miss a week of class and work to not see them in the end. Nothing could stop me. It was a pretty grueling 5 hours. Everyone there were either crazy or nuts Some were in line since 9PM the previous night. Luckily Walgreens was next door and open 24-hrs. I bet their sales were pretty high that day. A good number of us kept the rest entertained. Some tried to sleep, danced, took bathroom breaks, played cards, ipads, anything that could kill time. I think the line filled up really quick by 5AM.

Now this upsets me. As the time to get in for the official wristband line, people started to cut. Did they not see hundreds of tiring bodies behind them as they cut in line? As if they belonged there from the start? I was so furious at them. And to make it worse, they were a group of 5-6 people. It was easy for them to cut because all they needed to do was write a number on their hand. At that moment I called my friends who came to NY late because they had to catch a late bus after work from North East. I told them to cut if an opportunity was there. I knew it was a bad idea and I felt bad for the people who couldn't get wristbands because of my two friends that cut in line.

By 6AM it was like a madhouse. People tried to cut the original line, claiming that it's not the official line to get wristbands anyway. Newcomers fought with Best Buy employees. It was absolute chaos. Anyway, the 300 people that managed to get inside Best Buy had to wait yet another hour or two to actually buy cds and receive wristbands. I couldn't complain. At least we're not waiting in the cold anymore.

8AM: we get wristbands, staff told us to come back at 5PM and said the line would start around that time and not before. So no one should be standing in line before that if not they will take further action. o_O Such BS but whatever. We all took the time to freshen up, took a shower, eat, and buy presents.
I didnt know what to get Tiffany. Yes, she's my bias. I love Taeyeon too but Fany is my very first bias. It was either a cute humongous pink dog plushie or hello kitties sanrio edition. I bought the one that was travel friendly. And I wrote her a letter >.< oh my gosh its so embarrassing. My first time writing a fan letter. I was shaking the whole time I wrote it. My handwriting was soo freaking ugly. aish. I typed it on notepad first to avoid scribbling on the actual letter. I hope she shredded the letter. I dont want anyone else reading it ><

I lost track of time after hunting presents. I think it was around 5-6PM that people with wristbands were allowed to enter Best Buy where we had to wait in line again The most interesting part to me was they closed down Best Buy. Wow. And that store was supposedly 24 hours. That's some power soshi has over their fans. They make sones crazy and go all out, crowding the streets, causing a certain 24 hour store close for a few hours.

I was once again near the people who cut in front of me. Talk about spoiling the mood. To make it worse, they weren't sones. I so wanted to throw something at the person who asked who is who. I decided to not stare at them. It would only make me more upset.

Anywaaay.. after hours of waiting, it finally paid off. The line started to move. I was getting closer to the girls. kyaaaaaa. I tried to calm myself down. It wasn't easy lol. I might have looked calm on the outside, but I exploded inside. As I got closer to the girls, I tried to take pictures but none came out good. I couldn't even see who was the first to sign. At the same time a woman passed by. The person behind me said that was Sunny's sister. I was in awe. She's gorgeous. But I think below-average-height genes run in the family lol. Time passed by quickly, as I got closer, I could here Tiffany's voice. kyaaaaa. Security were telling us to put away our cameras. I did as told.

I was so nervous cos when I went up to Tiffany I couldn't say anything. I was also holding the 1st dvd concert booklet but instead gave her the US version cd insert to sign. I behaved well fear of getting kicked out of the line >< I had her present on my hand but it wasn't moving. I stared down at the present and my mind went blank. I didn't know what to do. I could only make up a "Tiffany!" and "Hi!". OTL. The stupid security guard ruined the moment by pushing me down while Tiffany was still signing my cd insert. But the stoned me just stood there waiting for her to finish. After signing, she looked up and showed me her eye smile while leaning forward towards me saying, "thank you for coming!" kdfjkdjfkdsjfkdsjfkldsjfkldsjfasdkl; That was the best seconds of my life. I was a coward for not responding nor moving but heeey I was starstruck. *o*

Hyoyeon was next. To be honest I forgot what Hyoyeon did. All I remember was her smile is beautiful. She's beautiful. The same thing with Sooyoung. After Sooyoung was Yoona. oh my gosh that girl was so asjdkajsdkkasfkdjfkdjf. I did the routine "insert name!" "Hi!" And they all said the same thing "Hi! Thank you for coming!" while leaning forward towards me. How was I suppose to say something when their face were inches away from me??!!! I felt myself melting lol

Seohyun was next. Again, I was starstruck and stupidly I called her Hyoyeon OTL. I saw Yoona laughing at my stupidity. Seobb being the perfect person she is assured me it was okay to slip. I lost count of the time I apologized to her. Forgive me Seobb >< At least I witnessed a rare moment of Yoona laugh. It wasn't her crocodile laugh and it wasn't her signature polite smile either. It was something in between. If only I could've captured that smile.

Next to Seobb was Sunny. Man, that woman seriously is full of smiles. So bright and sunny. hah. Her voice oh my gosh was high pitched in an adorable way. I think that was my voice when I was 10. The next person after her was the one I was waiting for after Fany. Peas!! Taeyeon said "Hi!" first. It was kind of a surprise after listening to a high pitched voice cos Tae's voice was a few octaves lower.

Taeyeon was seriously glowing that day. She finished signing and just stared at me for few seconds. Maybe she was waiting for me to say something? I dont know. But that was the second best seconds of my life. I wanted to say I love you but nothing came from my mouth other than her name and a very silent hi. It came out more like a sigh OTL.
Yuri was next but I really didn't pay much attention to her. I called her name and all but I felt like I ignored her a little. Sorry Yuri, Taeyeon stole the limelight. If Taeyeon was last, I wouldn't have ignored you ><

I stayed around Taeyeon and Yuri the longest because I noticed none of the staff hurried me. When I was about to exit the fansigning area, a Best Buy staff saw me still holding Tiffany's present. She asked me if it was for the girls and offered to put it in the basket. I didn't know how I forgot about the present all along lol. I was starstruck I tell you. STARSTRUCK!

I didn't cry because I shred all my tears for them during HB concert. That was the first time I saw them other than from a TV screen or computer. I should've cried. A few of my friends who cried got to shake hands with the girls D:<

Last time I said to myself to at least get a hand shake but stupid me I could only freeze like a rock. All in all, it was a great experience. Full of a frozen me, in and outside the building, but it was worth it. I left alone Tuesday morning. Came back home with a new experience written in my life and made new friends. I now have to face the consequence of dealing with school projects. I still can't catch up. le sigh.

Apparently this fanacc isnt short at all. Sorry guys

A few highlights I may or may have not have said above:
- One of their manager came up to us and said in broken english "I'm SNSD manager. Book, cd, middle, sign, ok." lol or something similar to that.
- All 8 girls started with "Hi! Nice to meet you!" and ended with "Thank you for coming!" while moving forward towards me. That seriously made me crazy. So close >< I was leaning in towards them so I could hear them talk better but as soon as they moved towards me I backed up a bit. face palm. I bet my face was as red as a tomato.
- One of the security guards from the morning was saying nice things about the girls. I liked that. I like how he always said GBU
- While waiting in the rain in the morning of Live! with Kelly, a guy was dancing to The boys. And at the part where the girls were on the floor, he also sat down. On the wet sidewalk. Props to him.

This is more like a "what just happened" or "why didn't I do this" fanaccount. Sorry if the story goes back and forth. It still seems like a dream to me.

Monday morning, very early morning, around midnight, me and 3 other friends (V,D,S to make it easier since I will be talking about them too) were waiting in front of a sushi restaurant next to W hotel. We were trying to catch a glimpse of anyone coming in the hotel. We looked like fangirls/boy with one holding a Taeyeon fan and I had a pink balloon. We saw a few SuJu members walk in. I only remember Donghae and Shindong, can't remember who the other members were. They came with a van not the SMTown Bus. Because it was so cold and windy that night, we decided to face the other side of the restaurant, facing the red stairs.
Around 1-2AM, S and I saw a korean guy and (I'm pretty sure) a hotel staff passed in front of us walking towards W. S and I were thinking he might be a staff of SM. A moments later D tried calling me and S. I thought that can wait since an SM Artist might pass by. Apparently D saw the korean staff guy and hotel staff come out from a secret passageway with none other, Jessica and Krystal. S and I were still looking towards W and didn't even pay attention when Jess was a few feet behind us. D called V to confirm if the girls she saw were Jess and Krystal since she's not a fan and does not know for sure who's who in SNSD. V also was not sure since she had light make up on and it was a bit dark. But D and V followed behind Jess and Krystal to confirm, in other words, they were stalking lol. Jess and Krystal were walking with two other girls. Maybe their cordi.
V called S over and said to her that they might have seen Jess and Krystal. I, on the other hand, still did not care about their founding. I thought maybe they wanted to mess around or something. But then a few minutes later V dragged me and said that I should come with him or else I'll regret not seeing Jessica in person lol.
At first I didn't believe what he was saying but I just followed behind him, running. And there they were. 4 girls walking just a few feet in front of me. Sica was wearing a 3/4 jacket. Krystal was also wearing a 3/4 jacket but she had her hood on. Both weren't wearing heels. Unlike their cordi/friend were very stylish and using heels. I know they know we were following them so they walked a bit faster. I had to throw my balloon away because it was slowing me down lol. Then I was thinking I needed a pen since I wanted their autograph and decided not to follow them anymore then went inside Walgreens hoping they wont go back to the hotel asap.

- A little interlude. This happened when I didn't care they saw Jess and I was waiting near W hotel. alone
So V, D, and S followed Jess up to the LG screen that had SMTown clips. Bear in mind all three of my friends were still not sure if it was Jessica. S even took a few steps in front of Jess to take a good look of the girls. But as soon as Jess spoke up, V noticed it and immediately confirmed its her all right. Jess and Krystal took a picture there. Both stretched their hands, like an airplane, leaning towards each other forming a V. S and D tried to take a picture of them. That's when both my friends got the glare of ice princess lol. She then pleadingly told them not to take pictures. So then Jung Sisters + 2 friends decided to shake them off by walking away. This is when I came running a block away XD
- I can't believe I missed this part. If I was there, I would've told them not to take pics. Cos I know they're not allowed by their managers especially since Jess had little make up on. Way to be on the bad side of Jessica, friends.

Ok, so we lost Jess and decided to wait around the red stairs. I saw the bus come by heading towards the hotel. All of us ran towards it and saw Yunho, Changmin, Luna, Amber, and Onew getting off the bus. Luna was so sweet. She smiled and waved at us all. Amber also smiled. After that the crowd got smaller. People started to leave thinking that's the end of it. My friends and I went back to sit around the red stairs. A half an hour later or maybe more, I saw 4 girls walking towards us. They were still a block away but I know for sure that's Jess and Krystal and cordis/friends. As they got closer, I panicked and froze. I couldn't stand up. They stopped right behind me and took pictures with the red stairs. Krystal had her hood off and I can see her face clearly. I was thinking this is the time to go to them and ask for an autograph. But then I thought there are still fans around, I don't want to invade their privacy. If I go up to them, I'm pretty sure 10 other fans will follow. Jess looked tired. I didn't want to pressure her. Jess and Krystal was looking at us, too. They were prolly thinking how to escape from us again. But then I let them go. It's not worth seeing them mobbed because of my selfishness.

Additional notes:
- Jessica and Krystal were so skinny. TV makes them a little full and healthy. In real life, they're too skinny. I wanted to tell them to eat more.
- They were both pretty even with the circumstances.
- I bet Jessica still remember my friends cos I know for sure they will always remember her glare lol
- I didn't get their signature but at least I saw them in person. It should be enough for now.
- Next goal is skinship. I want to shake hands with any of them