SnowFox

Let Me introduce Myself, My name is Andre
I am just... a Fanytastic member, nothing more, nothing less
I'm 90% sure that I'm not Stephanie's biggest fan
and I'm not blessed with much luck either
But, I'm sure with enough willpower and prayers i might just be able to meet Stephanie one day

Stephanie... if you somehow manage to find this i just wanted to tell you that i really love you, it's up to you to decide whether i'm just one of does crazy hardcore fans or just a normal guy, i know that you know the truth deep in your heart
the first time i saw you, i've fallen for you, just like how i've fallen for many other girls, but up until now you're the only one that stays in my mind, many others just come and go, you stayed, after i knew you, i haven't fallen for another girl and i hope that i could only stay with you
back then, i was having a lot of hard times in my life, i prayed to God every night to help me, i even started to think that my life has no meaning and i should just die, then one day, i saw you, i knew at that moment that God has finally decided to help me and also gave me a chance to start a better life, i can't believe that the sign God gave me was a person, i also knew that God is probably trying to say that you're going to be a part of my life somehow, but even now there're still a lot of bad things that happens to me and i end up hurting you, some guy i am, i want to pay you back and someday i will
after i knew you, so many things that has happened and so many unimaginable things i have done to myself, i would only do things through self awareness, not even my parents could make me do everything, you're the first person that has actually made me do crazy things, but every crazy things that you made me do is good things that would make me a better guy, everytime i want to do something but just can't, you always give me strength to do it
my dream is to hold your hands one day and walk into a church with our friends and families on the sideways then just grow old with you, some dream huh? i feel like an idiot even dreaming about stuff like that, i'm just unlucky that i was born after you and faraway from you, if i was born near you, i'm sure that i would still had a crush on you even if you didn't become famous, but i'm not the kind of guy that would just lay down and die, i know that there are things that's just weren't meant to be but this is not one of them, so i'll fight for my dream even though the chances of it are really slim, if i fail to achieve my dream, i really want you to find a nice guy to take my place and my dream one day, one who respects you and can teach you how to be comfortable with babies
i'm sorry if this is making you really uncomfortable, i know by now you would be really creeped out by me, i understand if you feel that way, since i'm writing this in a fansite, you would probably think of me as just a fan with no life, even i feel like a freak writing this, but this is the only place i know that i could actually contact you, so it's either this or nothing
i'm a guy that always keep my promises, every statement that i say is a promise, i would never make a promise that i can't keep, i promise you but only if you still let me, that i would always like you even after all of this ends and this place shuts down
One day i will go to seoul and i'll meet you in person, i hope that you'll still be there in about 10 years, if not i'll go to the states and search for you there, i will meet you no matter what, as fan and also a man, so please wait for me!